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Christobel Starsky / Commander Starscream ([personal profile] reapsthewind) wrote in [community profile] savetheearth2013-06-19 12:29 am

voice; webcam

[god i need more icons. Red text means she's speaking Cybertronian (decepticon dialect), so you'll only understand that if, well, you speak Cybertronian.

Chris is doing a video post, which is weird, because she never does that. It's pretty dark in her room, actually -- you can barely make out behind her a few of her prototype hand-made drones (which she uses for home-testing avionics software and AI) and more half-finished model planes than anyone should own.

The elephant (s) in the room of course are those arms, which are now fully visible: metal from the shoulder down, white to the elbow and then dark blue to the fingers. Between the metal plates, there's the faint glow of what looks like violet circuitry. Her eyes also seem very slightly brighter than they were before, the irises just a little bigger.

She looks awful; pale and shaken, like she hasn't slept in a few days.
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I, um.

[She speaks pretty quietly, runs a hand through her hair, takes a deep breath. Her hands are shaking pretty significantly.]

Can't type well yet. Not used to the arms. They also, um, shake, and hurt. I think they are low on power, I don't have an energon source,, whatever energon is, because honestly I have no idea except that I'd need it to fuel these?

Sorry, I hate... hate doing posts where you can hear my voice. I hate my voice, did you know that? Haha.

[She starts wringing her hands, still not really looking at the camera, and then stops when she accidentally pulls her left thumb out, basically starting to cause her arm to transform slightly into a different configuration. She stops, stares, and then gently pushes it back where it belongs.]

Which is funny, right, because I won't fucking shut up in real life, most of the time? But when I was a kid I hated the sound of my own voice and I think it's the audio recording thing, in that when I hear it recorded it makes it worse, so I don't like having it exist in a space where I can hear it...

...

That's not the point of this post, I don't know what the hell I'm doing. Um.

[She runs her hands through her hair, then clasps her hands and rests her chin on them, elbows on the desk, finally facing the camera, though not looking into it.]

I, uh. I put everyone in danger. I'm sorry, god, it was my fault. I should have... I should have fucking known better, go investigate the mine! Ha ha, great plan, when all the info we got was probably planted by Thunder Corp, when another group went already and didn't even FIND anything, of course they were watching it, and went ah, bet the idiots will come back, let's plant a thing that looks like answers and kill 'em and Primus.

people almost died.

[she closes her eyes]

People almost died and I feel like it was my fault. I'm sorry. Primus I'm sorry. I, uh. Um.

[She's shaking a lot harder now.]

I'm going to turn off this video feed, now, and um, maybe try to sleep, but god I am so sorry.
hollowleg: patented scowl (☼ is going to mean if it's gone)

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[personal profile] hollowleg 2013-06-21 05:28 am (UTC)(link)
Booze helps, huh... well, you know, in an energy crunch, sugar is the best for quick energy, and starch for sustained energy. You should make some simple pasta with butter. Or use that rice cooker I gave you. That's an even better idea. Do you remember how it works?

Well, didn't we just get a headshrinker in the club? I'd ask if talking about it would help but... I know it doesn't.
hollowleg: smile (☼ of the end of the world)

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[personal profile] hollowleg 2013-06-21 05:47 am (UTC)(link)
You're a good leader, I think. You can take charge and tell people what to do... you just need more experience. We all do. Next time, we won't let them catch us so off guard.

You got it. You can even be a little adventurous and add some butter and salt, or soy sauce. But for carbs, there's no easier way to get it.