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[ursoreckless]

[nope. he's not exactly okay. while he looks okay and isn't doing much of the drinking or smoking he had been before, he is still a little more restless and freaked, but why he couldn't quite tell anyone. which is probably why he opens up this feed to ask the people of this world what they think. since he can't actually ask anyone in his family about this stuff.]

I should've figured that I would get more gun-related things popping up, but I think some of these memories are getting weird.

[he huffs and shakes his head.] No, I mean I'm getting weird with the memories. Like they are changing me.

Like this last one. I'm running a gang and we go after these people and for some reason we end up fighting them. I'm killing the other guys since none of them move as good as I can... I'm dodging bullets and shooting them out and then stealing all their stuff while they're bleeding all over and...

I guess what I'm trying to say is that it doesn't bother me as much as it should. Killing people should be a big thing, but I just...

[he really is not a fan of trying to say things in English; it sounds like a bunch of nonsense and he frowns at the camera, huffs and runs a hand through his hair.]

I guess I really was yakuza in a past life.

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[worldmother]

Just because that's what you were in the past, doesn't mean that's what you have to be now.

I'm not a fan of the idea that we're stuck with becoming who we used to be.

[Because screw fate.]

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[ursoreckless]

That's what I said too, but shouldn't I be more upset about all the killing in the past? Shouldn't it seem like a big deal?

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[worldmother]

It should. I'm not saying it shouldn't. But sometimes what we're exposed to desensitizes us, and it may be off-putting. But if that's not the kind of person you are now, then, at worst, you have a tolerance to blood and gore. From what I've been reading, that may not be the worst thing out there to have.

[dominateartimus]

I know how you feel. I've received a few 'pulses' that should bother me, but they don't -- at least, not anymore.

[His tone is flat, but he won't go in to any further details about his.]

[ursoreckless]

Murder and stealing whatever isn't tied down should be upsetting.

[dominateartimus]

It should, considering the weight of taking someone's life.

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[nevergivesup]

Can't say much about what you saw, but I don't think your memories are changing you. You might just be getting used to having weird visions. I mean, how many have you had by now?

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[ursoreckless]

two three. thing is that i've seen him shoot at a guy he was friends with and laughing about it and now i got this knowledge about hitting people and stealing their stuff and shooting them. like it's nothing.

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[nevergivesup]

I dunno. I'd probably freak out if I got something like that, but I don't really think it's necessarily bad if you let it roll off your back. I'm still not really sure what the vision stuff is supposed to mean, but the way I see it, they're just visions. Like dreams, you know? It's not gonna do anything to you unless you let it.

I think unless you suddenly start thinking mugging and shooting people is a great idea, you're probably okay.

[Video]

[chalicejoker]

[Hajime looks pretty sympathetic, even if he's been more upset by some of his own memories than he'd care to admit.

But you're not going out and shooting people now, that's what's important.

[Now if only he'd listen when people told him similar things.]

[Video]

[ursoreckless]

[he is going to make a face at you Hajime because yeah, they are horrible people and stuff and how dare you toss his words back at him.

sort of]

Why would I need to? I can buy what they were stealing!

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[reapsthewind]

yeah


yeah i get that


i dunno there's been something different about me like

at the start of all this--maybe you remember--i'd run from combat

like

fuck that shit

but now it's like my veins are filled with nothing but gasoline

and it'd just take one spark

if that makes sense?

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[ursoreckless]

you've grown edges. i've noticed that more this stuff happens, the sharper you've grown.

i feel

like this is nothing that there's something more to grab and others getting in the way are

another wasted bullet

it's all casual, seeing these targets and knowing how to break into things, how to run a group of people to swoop in and take and hey if there's a gunfight, i can move around the bullets.

like a bad yakuza movie, but real cuz i'm the one dancing there guns in my hand yelling at my team to move and move and take them down

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[youngestone]

[Killian, in classic "raised by Irish mother" form, has made tea. He could tell Shou was a bit off today and seeing his post on the network told him he hadn't been imagining things. He heads to Shou's room with two cups and kicks at the door lightly]

Hey, I've got tea.

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[ursoreckless]

Tea?

[because it is a little weird that someone made tea and brought it to him when Shou was pretty sure that's only something a worried mother would do. so the door opens onto Shou's fancy room with the waterfall and the plants growing in it and Shou wearing just loose sweats that had seen better days.]

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[vetala]

This is what I was worried about, as far as changing goes.

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[ursoreckless]

maybe it's only this bad cuz i'm distant from the real time the memory is from.

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[siesinddasessen]

Soon you will remember how to hide a corpse, and then you can restart your ccriminal career.

[Though

wow

she did not expect you to be on the network. Now she has to wonder how many other people that she knows in real life are. Not using video herself, though that is less to stay anonymous and more because the old text works better when in public thing.]

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[ursoreckless]

like i have any need to do that.

[ninthmelody]

[Yakuza isn't a word Adam knows but... he can guess.]

Have... you been getting a lot like that?

[ursoreckless]

Yeah, I've got the accent and a gun and a jacket with bullet holes in it.

[Video]

[destinedforrock]

[Cinderella can't do any better than take a guess on what "yakuza" means, either - but she certainly gets the essential description of the memory he's gotten.

Blinks wide a moment.] Well!

...That's perfectly understandable. [That it wasn't that troubling apart from the fact of it (or the fact that the fact of it wasn't that troubling), that is.] After all you did nothing! It's - more like a~ frightful dream.

[Video]

[ursoreckless]

...Yeah, a lot like a dream. This whole thing is one big dream and if I hadn't met so many interesting people on here I would've asked it to stop months ago.

Video;

[sugoku]

I'm more impressed with the fact you were able to just dodged the bullets.

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[ursoreckless]

I'm not sure how I was able to back then [Kei was helping him know where the bullets where but he still moved faster than what was normal.] but I can move almost that fast right now.

I'm gonna hafta work my way up to dodging bullets though.