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[nope. he's not exactly okay. while he looks okay and isn't doing much of the drinking or smoking he had been before, he is still a little more restless and freaked, but why he couldn't quite tell anyone. which is probably why he opens up this feed to ask the people of this world what they think. since he can't actually ask anyone in his family about this stuff.]

I should've figured that I would get more gun-related things popping up, but I think some of these memories are getting weird.

[he huffs and shakes his head.] No, I mean I'm getting weird with the memories. Like they are changing me.

Like this last one. I'm running a gang and we go after these people and for some reason we end up fighting them. I'm killing the other guys since none of them move as good as I can... I'm dodging bullets and shooting them out and then stealing all their stuff while they're bleeding all over and...

I guess what I'm trying to say is that it doesn't bother me as much as it should. Killing people should be a big thing, but I just...

[he really is not a fan of trying to say things in English; it sounds like a bunch of nonsense and he frowns at the camera, huffs and runs a hand through his hair.]

I guess I really was yakuza in a past life.

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the thing that scares me is that I kind of like it

I want to be more... that. More edged. More dangerous. Less afraid.

But that in itself kind of scares me, you know?

i know. i see this stuff and think that i could be like that but to take that step

to be less afraid, more edged i think we'll give up a part of what we are now. that's the scary part. is what we had worth giving up what we have?

i've never been normal, always the wild one the reckless one first guy to head straight for a wall just to see if it will break this time but this wall idek if we should break it

will we have a choice, though


this is war

the choice might be lose part of what we are, or die

basically we're probably going to lose everything we had anyway unless we accept what's happening to us

a war we never wanted or needed

but yeah we will need to fight it

they won't leave us alone at this rate

and we might as well become the weapons we were in our past so our families won't get hurt.

though i guess that's another problem

how much longer are they still going to be our families?

if my folks weren't back in DC i couldn't go home to visit them because of... yeah.

a family's someone that care for you; they don't have to be related to care

mine's mostly in japan i can't imagine visiting them now cuz of this

hey i dunno, japan's on the other side of the planet
if you ever needed to get the hell out of dodge and avoid the inevitable for a little longer than the rest of us...

i'm not cutting out on you guys

good to know

but i wouldn't judge if you did

thanks for saying it's okay

i don't believe in doing that

as much as people on here can irritate, we're all in the same boat

who knows, this is probably only the beginning and japan's next after america

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