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What do you do when you don't know what to do?

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[The Fenton home has been abandoned since its owners died. Technically, it's no longer a crime scene and is up for sale, but nobody wants to buy a house where a triple-homicide took place. In fact, if you look closely, you can see where the carpet has been overbleached to get rid of the blood stains. So the house remains, empty.

Except for now. Some lucky folks might get a glimpse of doppelDanny leaving the house, red-eyed and sniffling as he shuts the front door behind him and starts walking back towards the Alesci home.]

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Well, that's a dumb question. [Doppel!Stefan may be scoffing because bro. Bro, he thought he knew you better than that. He holds up a glass of wine casually, holding it up to Danny as if offering to send it through the screen.]

I do whatever I want, whenever I want. I don't need something like doubt holding me down.

Edited 2015-02-11 04:06 (UTC)

If you're suggesting I do that too, then sorry, but that's the problem. I don't really know what it is I want to do.

No kidding? [Somehow, Doppel!Stefan doesn't look surprised.] Then why don't you join me for some fun? There's gotta be something more exciting than... I don't know, whatever you've been doing.

[This is not what he was expecting when he posed this question.]

What kind of fun?

My kind of fun. Come on, don't you trust me?

[The fact that he's being super vague is probably enough to set off some kind of warning bell.] I mean, I'm not kicking puppies or anything - ooh, unless you want to.

[Okay, Stefan would NEVER kick puppies, or even suggest it.]

Are you one of the doubles that have been running around lately?

Nope, I'm the bonafide original. Though, now that you mention it? I could see the appeal in two of me.

[He looks almost offended. Almost, because him? A double? What a silly thought.]

[Danny locks the thread. He may not be all that perceptive, but seriously. Stefan, kicking puppies? No way.]

Seriously, man. Kicking puppies? You have GOT to be a double.

Let's say I am - which I'm not, because my double's the one working at a boring ol' church, but I'll humor you. Then what're you going to do?

Sit around and mope all day? That's clearly less fun than barbeque. [He pauses for a millisecond.] Pork, I mean. Not dogs, because that's cruel and unusual.

Get a grip on yourself, first. Take deep breaths, close your eyes, and focus on the voice in your heart. If you don't know what to do, don't think about it so much - go wherever the wind takes you. If you dwell on things too much, you'll end up wondering and doubting and hating. That doesn't end well for anyone.

Dwelling, huh?

It is really easy to dwell. It's pretty much all I do any more anyway.

It's kind of a lame existence, isn't it? Surely you have SOMETHING else to do with your time. Otherwise, aren't you just wasting your own time along with everyone else's?

Well I try to help people, you know, do the whole superhero thing. But...that's pretty much it now. I don't really do anything else.

And when the hero business becomes saturated, and there's no work for you? What then? Will you just roll over and die?

I don't know. Maybe? It's not like there's anything else left I can do, so once that's done with, I guess so am I.

This is why I'm asking for advice in the first place.

What the hell are you living for, then? Recognition? Fulfillment? Rewards? Being the good guy in a world full of evil? If you can't at least figure out that much, asking us for help isn't going to do much. Maybe you really SHOULD roll over and die. It'd be easier.

You think I haven't already tried that?

It's not as easy as it sounds.

Which part? The figuring things out part, which I admit you're working on now... kind of... or the dying part? If you can't get the former nailed down, I can certainly help with the latter.

Both.

You've got a lot more spine than I expected, for someone that's having a hard time finding a reason to live. Maybe you'll find one before you decide you don't want to.

Need me to put you on ice, and you can put the decision off for a couple decades?

I don't want to, but I can't do that to my friends. They shouldn't have to deal with the aftermath of that. I can't do that to them.

Freezing me or whatever would basically just be the same idea, wouldn't it? Taking me out of the picture so no one can ever see or talk to me again until I get defrosted way later in the future...it's not that much different.

So...thanks, but no thanks.

Well, I can understand on the ice. It's no fun to just push your inevitable death back a while. Better to either take it now, or fight it until you can't fight it anymore.

We could always break something important and then physically throw you out of the barrier. You'd probably die then.

No, it's not that I'm like immortal or something.

I just can't do that to my friends. It's not an option any more--it's off the table.

Haa. You really are a goody two-shoes. Not so much afraid to die as unwilling to burden your friends... okay. I can respect that, at least a little.

Just don't get in my way, or I can't be held responsible for what might happen to you. Saving the world does not necessarily include minimizing collateral damage.

What? What are you doing?

It's not really about what I'm doing, is it? I just don't want to accidentally freeze you after you so kindly asked me not to.

[Somehow, even over text, this seems amazingly insincere.]

... I talk to the people who are important to me. I know that they're always able to help me get my head on straight, and tell me what I need to hear to get my head on straight.

That's pretty much why I'm asking this on the network.

... Yeah, I'm sorry. I just... I don't know you very well, so I didn't know if it was my place...

I guess that's pretty presumptuous of me.

Where do you need to focus, exactly?

I don't know, everywhere, I guess? Everything's changed so much in the past few months and I don't know what to do any more.

I can understand that.

Um... this relates to your family, right? I mean, I can definitely see how that would get you there...

It's a lot of stuff, but most of it started after they died, yeah. Or with some really bad pulses I got a while ago.

I dealt with the same thing when I lost my brother. The only thing that helped me get past it was talking to everyone. They told me I had the strength to keep carrying on, and that... that's what my brother would have wanted.

I think your parents would have wanted the same thing.

Edited 2015-02-15 07:42 (UTC)

Probably.

Something tells me they wouldn't be happy with a homeless high school dropout superhero for a son.

I would think they'd be more worried about you and concerned with helping you get out of a situation you couldn't control.

I... go to my friends, Danny.

[Is it... Danny? She can't even be sure, and her mind is a jumbled mess right now, but it's a valid answer.]

Well...that's what I'm doing right now.

...right. It's just... to some degree, you hadn't for awhile... I've worried about you in a lot of ways.

You have?

Of course. You're my friend, and you've been hurt by something awful. Even though I lost my mother, it's... not something I can relate to the same way.

At least, that's how it was before... before I saw my past life's father murdered right in front of her.

Oh. I didn't know about that.

I'm sorry.

...you shouldn't apologize.

You don't have anything to apologize for. Not for that.

I guess not.

I just didn't know what else to say. And I know how it feels for that to happen. Both in real life and in pulses.

Right. Of course, you do... I would never try to compare our situations, what you've been through is... entirely different. Yuri's memories are just that - memories. You actually lived it... [Or the real you, maybe.] I just want you to know people are here, alright?

You've been wondering that too, huh?

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