savetheearth | Psionic://Posts/18

IIt feels liike II've been liiviing a dream for the last month or so. Strange that II used two thiink of that as normal. IIt shows how much II've changed and II'm not sure iif that should be depressiing or not.

II forgot everythiing about thiis and looked liike my old self. All the changes II had made iin my liife II had completely mundane reasons for makiing. Now that II remember agaiin not sure why II beliieved any of iit.

How can our bodiies physiically change so easiily, how can our miinds be so readiily maniipulated? II used two assume that these changes, whatever they are, were (and many of you wiill roll your eyes and laugh) beiing wrought by God for some hiigher purpose. Now II'm not sure thiis iisn't just another triick by those really conviinciing aliiens.

II just wiish we knew what's causiing thiis, why iit's happening and what iit iis we're supposed two be doiing about iit. IIt's never really made any sense, but II guess just how nonsensiical iit iis has really hiit home as of late.

Just thiinkiing aloud II guess.

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II remember.

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That I couldn't see you coming. [he doesn't quote meet his eyes, feeling a bit guilty for not saying so sooner]

[He still doesn't understand.]

Soren?

[he shakes his head, glancing at him before looking away again.]

My eye. [he gestures to the now pitch black one]

[Oh... Oh no. He shakes his head, looking stunned, and then sad. He doesn't have anything to say, so he moves to wrap Soren in a hug instead.]

I'm sorry.

[he just lets him, hugging back loosely after a moment.]

It's okay... I'm getting used to it.

[Still hugging.]

[it's a little strange, since he's never hugged him before really, but he honestly doesn't mind, especially after.he'd started to fear he wouldn't remember at all.]

Sorry I was gone for so long.

[ he shakes his head ]

It's fine, I know you didn't try to. I just... [he trails off, not finishing his sentence. he didn't think he would end up remembering.]

[After another moment he pulls back.]

I know. I'm here now and.. I want to know if you're really alright.

[he nods]

I'm okay... Just, a lot of stuff happened, you know?

[He nods back. He does know. It doesn't take long for things to go to hell these days.]

What?

[he's not sure how to start, and he looks down, taking a deep breath after a moment to steel himself]

Aria's number stopped working.

...Oh.

[She was gone.]

Did you ever end up going to her funeral?

[he shakes his head mutely, not trusting himself to talk. it was bad enough before, when she was dead but still around - but now it was worse. she was dead for good. he stays looking down, doing his best not to cry.]

[Oh no.. He puts his hand on Soren's shoulder, before hugging him again.]

[he shakes his head again]

It's not your fault, shut up.

Okay. I can do that.

[he smiles a little, looking back up]

You're so weird.

[He smiles back weakly, before 'zipping' his lips shut.]

[ he laughs a little, before pulling away from the hug. ]

So that means when I win you can't complain about it. [he grins]

[He gives Soren an over the top glare raising his fists in a mockery of a fighting stance.]

[he sticks his tongue out at him before finally starting the game]

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