Psionic://Posts/18_anotherlife.txt

[dorkytracksuit]

IIt feels liike II've been liiviing a dream for the last month or so. Strange that II used two thiink of that as normal. IIt shows how much II've changed and II'm not sure iif that should be depressiing or not.

II forgot everythiing about thiis and looked liike my old self. All the changes II had made iin my liife II had completely mundane reasons for makiing. Now that II remember agaiin not sure why II beliieved any of iit.

How can our bodiies physiically change so easiily, how can our miinds be so readiily maniipulated? II used two assume that these changes, whatever they are, were (and many of you wiill roll your eyes and laugh) beiing wrought by God for some hiigher purpose. Now II'm not sure thiis iisn't just another triick by those really conviinciing aliiens.

II just wiish we knew what's causiing thiis, why iit's happening and what iit iis we're supposed two be doiing about iit. IIt's never really made any sense, but II guess just how nonsensiical iit iis has really hiit home as of late.

Just thiinkiing aloud II guess.

[private to soren]

II remember.

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[squicksilver]

You might be right. God, after all, has quite the sense of humor.

[ and now, on to the important things: ]

There's a key on your keyboard that's sticking.

[dorkytracksuit]

So they say.

That's a pulse actually.

[squicksilver]

[ It takes him a moment to parse that. Pulse? Ah. ]

You've got a reincarnated keyboard?

[dorkytracksuit]

No. IIt's a habiit.

[squicksilver]

[ okay ]

So you really did forget everything? Are you sorry you've remembered?

[dorkytracksuit]

Thankful actually. That's what's makiing thiis all so strange. IIt felt liike before II remembered II was just.. Holdiing my breath.

[private]

[mood2wiingiing]

good.

Re: [private]

[dorkytracksuit]

what have II miissed?

Re: [private]

[mood2wiingiing]

iidk.
a lot ii gue22? aliien2 and 2hiit happeniing iin vega2 but not much here really ii gue22.
thiing2 are kiind of... normal agaiin.

[private]

[dorkytracksuit]

II meant, wiith you.

Re: [private]

[mood2wiingiing]

oh.

not much.
ju2t liife.

Re: [private]

[dorkytracksuit]

Should II stiill call my mom for that cookiie reciipe?

Re: [private]

[mood2wiingiing]

lol.
iif you want two.

[brotimaeus]

Sounds like you're an old hand at this.

[dorkytracksuit]

More than a year now. Feels longer.

[brotimaeus]

Jesus.
How do you put up with this shit for over a year without losing every marble you have.

[dorkytracksuit]

Oh, II've lost them.

[brotimaeus]

Oh, great. That gives me hope for the future.

[dorkytracksuit]

.. IIt's not really so bad. Most people on here are helpful and understandiing. Sorry.

[handwritten]

[moarnomsplz]

Hey Davin, welcome back?

You OK?

[Getting his own pulses back all at once was awful a few months ago. Alex can hardly even imagine how bad it must have been for Davin.]

I wish we knew why too.

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[dorkytracksuit]

Not yet, but soon. II hope.

IIt's just frustratiing not knowiing what we're even supposed two be doiing or what's goiing on.

[handwritten]

[moarnomsplz]

Yeah no kidding. Unfortunately that kind of doesn't seem like its going to go away.

Did you just like randomly forget?

Re: [handwritten]

[dorkytracksuit]

Yes. II don't even know why. IIt came back just as randomly as iit left.

[handwritten]

[moarnomsplz]

[That's alarming.]

Really? Like nothing seems to have set it off or anything?

Re: [handwritten]

[dorkytracksuit]

Nothiing. II can't thiink of anythiing II diid that day that was even remotely out of the ordiinary. Whiich II guess iin itself may seem odd upon reflectiion...