Nineteenth Message [Text -> Video | Sheet of Paper]

[scramasax]

[Last message seemed to be a reminder that it may be advisable not to jump straight into visual connection without some sort of warning or heads-up preface.

Is unsure what a clear enough heads-up would be, deliberates a moment - and then pens in - ]

This is Anthony Janvier (the zombie). [It's a ridiculously silly thing to write but the warning's clear!] I am changing to video.

[Another pause - and connects directly with a rough - ] - Excuse - me - ... [A little thick and choppy - quick flick of his eyes down in a sense that's part additionally apologetic and part plain a tad restless.]

-- How umm -

-- If I may ask - how - [A little hoarse, this is not meant to sound critical as much as it is curious but he'd not be fretting that if it wasn't out of some subconscious, latent opinionated though - ] -- sure we are - of the -- past life or - alternate - reality - theories.

[That punctuation's not an error. It's entirely uninflected, held tense along a line, as is everything else just a little faintly, has no idea how much presumption could've been read into that.]

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[Text]

[shiromadoushi]

Pretty sure here. Diabound's born of soul, so he couldn't be with me if I didn't share the soul he was born of. And that shit doesn't happen in this world unless history was really good at covering that up.

[Text]

[scramasax]

Still, how do you know that he wasn't born of your soul? If we are seeing "other worlds", do they have to be real ones?

[Text]

[shiromadoushi]

He's in almost every memory I've gotten from Egypt.

Honestly, I'm not sure I want to know what it says about me if this is all stuff my brain's making up on its own...

[stavros]

I am unsure. However, these people we remember had to have come from somewhere.

[scramasax]

-- I erm -- [He knows what he's going to try to get at - not how he can without sounding silly about it.] I'm -- still unsure if they don't come from us. - [Tone's a bit padded argumentative so much as tentatively earnest.] -- Concepts - of - who else we could have been - ...

[Voice]

[dododo]

There are people who have seen each other in their memories. In some cases, there's even been a shared memory, that meshes. Seeing someone you've known in your past life here, I think, can cause an echo.

And I think even fragments of memories aren't something you just make up like that. It'd be something else entirely if we were only getting objects that could come from anywhere.

[Video]

[scramasax]

-- Maybe we're not - uhm. -- Making it up - then... - Perhaps -- perhaps something else - is -- and err -- [Unsure how questionable this is going to sound.] ... - "gives" it to us, in. - In pieces...

[Voice hushed to a drag and trail off - nearly apologizes but reels it back, see if it's taken as argumentative first. Opts instead for an - ] - I umm. I know how it sounds...

[ursoreckless]

I'm pretty sure. Some things that I've remembered could be possible in this world, but it's like I'm remembering a future world that's not too much of a future.

Mebbe ten years, twenty years in the future since the tech's similar but yet some other things are not. [alternate earths, infinite possibilities, and a life less than good, those were his theories since he started seeing more of the other's world.]

Why do you ask?

[scramasax]

...I - I was only wondering since - [Couple of glances off to the side.] - new people to this it's... -- it's what they tell them. Often. That it's umm - alternate realities or - past lives we're seeing.

[Small smothered cough.] -- I'm still not sure what I think - ...

[This is in fact a passive way of saying he's not sure he buys either of the common theories, won't press it unless unquestionably prompted.]

text

[mood2wiingiing]

for me its less sure and more idk what the other options are.
except all of us going crazy?? i guess thats a choice two still.
it never stopped being one really.

text

[scramasax]

I had a discussion with someone else, once... We suggested that it could be drawing out of our potential in some way. [Another moment - ] Since I doubt that things happening to us can be accidental, I do not know what the limit could be on where what we are receiving has to be from.

Video

[moralizes]

Like the one above me said, I don't know what the other options could possibly be. Something like a past life or alternate reality already sounds crazy, and yet it's the only thing that seems it could make any sense.

Did you have something else in mind...?

Video

[scramasax]

[Pause.

Sheepish cough. How to present this...] -- I -- ...uhm.

[Be subjective. It's a theory and it's going to sound like a reaching one, at least at the current stage.] -- It keeps, uhm. -- Seeming to me like this is deliberate - and all -- so many supernatural things have already happened; I don't, umm.

-- I don't - think - that - ...

- I don't - know if the people who, we're - seeing as have to have already existed; maybe something has a -- concept in mind for each of us and is -- changing us deliberately - ...

[Uncertain waver and bow-out at the end of the phrase.]

Sorry, sir - [For the bumbling and length of it - and, again, subconscious opinionatedness.]

[Text]

[professorwolf]

I admit I've been resisting the idea of past lives, in part because I'm not entirely sure I want to be this "other fellow" of mine, but it is a valid theory.

The idea of alternate realities is also a valid theory. It seems a bit more likely in my case, as Queen Victoria, to my knowledge, did not have werewolves at her beck and call in this world :)

[Text]

[scramasax]

[Hesitates to ask this, as he'd really rather not look as if he's preemptively questioning Mr. Lyall, but - gives in...]

Do you think that the things that we're seeing have to have really happened (if you don't mind me asking, sir)?

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[hustru]

Alternate reality theories?

[She's using text despite everything because. Words. It just is a lot less awkward when she has more time to form them.]

text;

[scramasax]

[He'd empathize there, even if it sacrifices something else.]

Yes. The two main theories that people seem to have is that we are changing to reflect people who we were in past lives or people who lived in alternate realities.

voice

[struckout]

[ Distractedly: ]

It's probably both.

video

[scramasax]

[And caught off=guard.]

Pr... - Prob - probably - ...?

[All stumbling and light.]

text (typed)

[tenaciousc]

So you're the ["zombie I freaked out about"- no, let's use some tact] kid from the alley. Sorry about all that.

They're the easiest options I guess.

text (handwritten)

[scramasax]

[The kid from the alley - flash in his brain, compares numbers and faces he can place.

And hangs over how to pick up.]

Hello, ma'am... I apologize.I was the zombie in the alley [Clearly!] I should not have been there. [He'll attempt to smooth anything out that may require it before anything else!]

[Text]

[healspec]

Not sure at all.

If it is past lives, mine was not on this world. And why only one if there are infinite lives to take memories from? [he's Hindu, he's just going to take the infinite reincarnations as a given.]

I wonder if they all are fake, to be honest. Stories made up by whatever gives us these pulses.

[Text]

[scramasax]

[Reads the first line. Scans it and moves on to the next.

The first part of it seems to also imply openness to the alternate realities theory - and the second one's a fine point...

And there's a little ring in his brain on the last one, as yes, that's just what he wonders themselves, unsure if he would be looking like he's trying something given past interactions if he out-and-out said so - ]

I wonder that, also. [Never mind, then. Fidgets with his pen - elaborating, giving more of a response might help, one way or another...] I wish that there was a way to know ["What our changes"... "Indicate"? "Reflect"? Gives up, strikes the sentence, do it over.] I am curious how what each of us receives is decided, but I think that what is happening to us feels purposeful.

[He has always thought that. Inclusion of the word "always" would probably put egg on his face whether it came off as absurd or smug.]

text

[blackcrystal]

Oh my God you're real

text

[scramasax]

[Ahh dear he's unsure how to respond to this - all the less somehow with a face to place to the phrase.]

Yes. I really am a zombie. [That's a try!]