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[gunhearted]

theres somebdoy here from my past
and not just anybdoy somebody i was really close to back then
really really close
shesin most of my memories
alost all fo them
but something terrible happened to her in the things i eremember
and its why i have thet attoo on my face
why he hsd it on his anyway
shes really nice and i dont want her to get hurt
if shes sees that tattoo what if she echoes aobut the other stuff

its really selfish to wish i cuold talk to her right
even though she could echo aful stuff back rihgt?
they coudl actually urt her.
really hurt her

idont know what to do

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[originaloddcouple]

[She doesn't even notice that she did, she's too busy making sure BUDDY IS OKAY.]

If... that's what you want to do, I won't talk to her, okay?

But what do you want to do if she gets hurt somehow?

[gunhearted]

She won't get hurt! If I stay far away from her she won't get hurt because she won't have something to remind her--

[He sniffs again, though, pulling back and rubbing his eyes.]

I--I got this stuff first. So I should--I should try to keep her safe even if it means staying away, right?

[originaloddcouple]

[She goes a little quiet for a second and looks slightly... uncomfortable at that. But she slowly nods.]

If... you think it'll work, I'll follow your lead.

[gunhearted]

[No he catches that. She looks uncomfortable. He made Miria uncomfortable.]

D-did I say something awful?

[originaloddcouple]

Wha-what?! No! Everything's fine, buddy!

[Super nervous and not convincing but whatever.]

[gunhearted]

[Miria that's not believable at all.]

W-what did I say?

[originaloddcouple]

Nothing! Nothing at all!

[And to prove it, she wraps him in another hug.]

It's... It's all okay.

[gunhearted]

[He doesn't quiet buy it. It makes him a little nervous that she's upset with him but he will... accept the hug because it's Miria and he is doing his best to make sure she is happy.]

[originaloddcouple]

[Hugs are nice. She's starting to feel a bit emotional again, but she pushes it down in favor of gripping Jacuzzi a little tighter.]

If you think this'll work, I won't talk to her unless you think it's okay.

[gunhearted]

[So long as she doesn't call attention to the fact that this is one of those rare hugs where he's gripping her back just as tightly? He's fine with it.]

I-I'm sorry...

[originaloddcouple]

[Miria doesn't notice most things. All she's noticing right now is FRIENDSHIP~.]

You don't have to be...

[gunhearted]

You--you do so much for me. A-and all I do is cause more trouble for you...

[Nope see it always ends up here. Always.]

[originaloddcouple]

You've never caused us trouble! A-and Isaac and I are always willing to help... because we like to see you happy...

[She doesn't care if they visit this place a billion times, she's all too eager to keep wrapping him in hugs like this.]

[gunhearted]

[But does he really deserve to be happy? He fucked up and he knows it whether Miria is telling him or not.]

I-I like it when you guys are happy, too.

I'm sorry--I'm sorry I'm asking this...

[originaloddcouple]

[Did Jacuzzi just... Yes, he did say that which just makes it so much harder to keep in the tears. Even if they're happy tears for the first time in a while. She just keeps holding on, a wettish smile on her face.]

Y-you don't have to be sorry... And- and even if Isaac and I aren't...

[She trails off for a second before getting back on track.]

You don't ever have to worry about asking us anything. Both of us will do it, no questions asked.

[gunhearted]

Then talk to each other.

[It comes out of his mouth without thinking and he jerks back from Miria because ahaha, oh no now he's stepping on toes again.]

I-I'm sorry I know it's not what you meant I wasn't thinkin'--!

[originaloddcouple]

[It hurts. It hurts so much and it's clear on her face. She trembles a little and her gaze falls to the ground.]

N-no, it's f-f-fine.

Y....you're right I should just...

[Her gaze still focuses on the ground as she tries to keep in the tears. Please, not now. Jacuzzi is the last person who should be hurt by anything that was her fault. The tears would just make him feel even worse.]

[gunhearted]

I just want you guys to be happy again.

[It's sincere. They both seem pretty miserable.

And even beyond that he does have a selfish wish for Isaac to come back. He misses him. He misses them both being around, he misses them being excited and animated, and he misses them being encouraging.]

[originaloddcouple]

I... know...

[She sniffles a little before shifting slightly. Her expression changes to something a little more determined.]

...I promise we'll talk if we have the opportunity...

[gunhearted]

I-I'm sorry... [Wait that's a selfish sentiment.] T-thank you, Miria.

[originaloddcouple]

It... It's nothing.

[And she moves to wrap him in another hug.]

[gunhearted]

[He just feels awful now. He can't believe he was mean to Miria.]

[originaloddcouple]

[Hugs will make it better.

Hug it out, Jacuzzi.]