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[Attached is a photo of something that looks remarkably like a gun. No, Matt has not become the proudest new member of the NRA.

He's freaking out a little bit because he has officially had the most fucked up day of his life a little over a week ago. He has never felt more pain in real life or in a memory than when that monster ripped through his persona. And he's not sure it won't happen to him now if he tries to use one again. And that thing... was inside his head? Waiting to break out again? This is not what he asked for. But no one's getting that, right? So he keeps up the deadpan humor and sarcastic attitude because he has nothing else to fall back on.]

Heads up. So there's a monster summoning system that requires you to shoot yourself in the head. The same summoning system knocks you out for a week after you use it. So don't try it at home. Also, apparently I am a harp-playing robot if the "Thou art I and I am thou" thing is to be believed.

If we ever have awards, I at least want a nomination for "most unnecessary side effects to a power."

ETA: Please don't actually shoot yourself in the face. At all.

~~This is seriously fucked up.~~

Private text to Phillip

The monsters you summon--they're called Shadows.

[OOC; And trigger warning that Matt is explicitly mentioning that this summoning is p much faking suicide in at least one thread so be careful of that.]

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Yeah, but. I can summon a persona. That doesn't mean I'm a persona.

Besides, you're not Pharos. You're Phillip.

Well yeah, but that's because people summon Persona. They don't summon Shadows.

I know. [but...]

If they come from people, isn't it the same thing? You just... know you're summoning a Persona.

That's not what I meant when I said they come from people. It's more... [hm.] People's negative feelings create them, and sometimes when that happens they either turn into Shadows too or they just stop having any emotions or thoughts at all.

Wait.

Wait. People can turn into Shadows?

[He nods again.] I don't remember how, exactly...

I hope we don't get the chance to find out.

[yeah um. phillip. no concept of death. he just won't reply to this.]

I guess we can't really figure out if I'm one or not.

I still think you're a person. You don't seem like you're made of negative emotions or anything.

[hmmm. Well, that's true. He's pretty happy most of the time. But he's not totally convinced.]

Then how come I can summon them?

I think we'd need to know more about this stuff. And for the moment, I want to back off. One coma is enough.

[yeah no he doesn't want Matt to do that again. So he nods.] Ok.

[He'll do it. In the future. When he's less worried about ending up in a coma again.]

... So don't do anything okay? About shadows or personas or whatever.

Ok. I'll try. [it's just hard to not get Echos sometimes.]

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