Yeah...! Exactly. That's what I've been trying to get across, I think. That we don't have to look at as being forced to become people that we used to be, that we just have to take their example... or in my case, the LACK of one, and change ourselves.
So even if I've got these horrible memories, even though she's someone I would never want to be... I think I'm better for having experienced things this way. It's helped me become a better person, even if it's by showing me things I SHOULDN'T try to be.
She was really lonely. I don't know how I know this, but... it's the feeling I got from seeing things from her side. It doesn't excuse anything she did, and I'll never claim otherwise, but... it's shown me just what I'd be like if I stayed that way. And how lucky I am that I have all of you.
And... I don't know, Winter. You were the first person besides Lily to make me feel that way. Before Raye or even Marina... So. I'm really thankful for you.
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So even if I've got these horrible memories, even though she's someone I would never want to be... I think I'm better for having experienced things this way. It's helped me become a better person, even if it's by showing me things I SHOULDN'T try to be.
She was really lonely. I don't know how I know this, but... it's the feeling I got from seeing things from her side. It doesn't excuse anything she did, and I'll never claim otherwise, but... it's shown me just what I'd be like if I stayed that way. And how lucky I am that I have all of you.
And... I don't know, Winter. You were the first person besides Lily to make me feel that way. Before Raye or even Marina... So. I'm really thankful for you.