I could -- ["I could say that" isn't the answer he wants to give at all, shakes it off, winces.] - I don't - [And forces it out, over-hasty, uncontrolledly high with a daft-sounding crack to falling on its face - ] - I was still in the apartment - !

I'm only -- [Dropped to wheezy.] -- I'm only - not -- sure what happened... while I was, I'm - I really am sorry, just don't know how to - say it -- ...