[Texted]

[espigeonage]

[This goes up at about three a.m., though obviously it can be seen and replied to at any time.]

Anyone up and on rn? It's got creepy, but I don't think anything can get up here. Anyway. I'm pretty sure this last extra is not about me, because I know what I was like at eight years old. I didn't think things out, I was a *kid*. No one was recruiting me for anything more serious than idk, dodgeball.

Who the fuck asks eight year olds to be field agents? For anything? Especially things that could get them shot or buried alive? Who does that? Even if he *is* this weirdly mature type and apparently not human.

Gah. This might be a good time to go for a run.

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[espigeonage]

I don't know! But apparently there were or are humans there. "It was their world before it was ours".

[chalicejoker]

What else was there besides humans?

[espigeonage]

Not-me, the Heaven-Soaring Wings, and this mysterious Party they were a part of, I guess! It was almost more a thought than a memory.

[chalicejoker]

You have any idea what you were if you weren't human?

[Because he knows that feel, even if he's nowhere near ready to admit that much.]

[espigeonage]

I kind of have a guess, if I put this together with my last vision-dream, but not really much in the way of evidence.

[chalicejoker]

That's got to be weird.

[Not going to push the issue, not going to outwardly express sympathy. He's resisting the urge to tell Julien that getting evidence doesn't always make things better.]

[espigeonage]

Very! I don't want to speculate much because right or wrong it sounds even more ridiculous than I like to be. And I like absurd, so!

[chalicejoker]

Not like anything's really making sense anyway. Absurdity wouldn't be too surprising.

[Well, that's good, at least, that he hasn't found another monster...unless he's dealing with the sort of guy who would consider being a monster absurd.]

[espigeonage]

I know, I know, but there's a certain point... And it sounds like bragging, lol. Also I know I'm not up on them, but I don't ever remember hearing that they have weird lungs like these.

[chalicejoker]

You'd think being something other than human would be bragging?

[Does not compute.]

How weird did your lungs get, anyway?

[espigeonage]

wellll In this particular case, yeah. It's kind of *religious* other-than-human.

[That Anghel-vision has really misled him. Reality warpers always make things confusing.]

*Really* weird. I got an x-ray at the clinic and they're actually really tiny now. Like a third the size they're supposed to be and kind of ribbed, and they don't move much. That's why I was having so much trouble breathing. I can't even cough normally anymore!

Instead there are these hollow spaces like balloons coming off them and *they* are the ones that move. All through my chest, under my collarbones, a little in my arms and gut even. And now there's this weird rocking chest movement every time I breathe.

They do seem to work better. But it's really kind of unsettling!

[chalicejoker]

Religious?

[He is so not following there. But he's more distracted by the thought of organs transforming to something they shouldn't be transforming into.]

I'd imagine it would be. Do you anticipate any further changes with the other form you're thinking of?

[espigeonage]

I'm more or less Christian. Very lapsed, though, I'm only ever in church for Christmas and Easter.

A few big ones. Probably lots of smaller things if it's not just the lungs that are different. Should be exciting, huh?

[chalicejoker]

Can't say I'm that religious myself...

I think you and I have very different definitions of exciting.

[He's more likely to describe that as "miserable," himself.]

[espigeonage]

Yeah, it seems like a bit of a hassle.

lol, maybe! Just because something's exiting doesn't mean it's fun or positive, but putting it like that's pretty much my style.

[chalicejoker]

Too energetic for mine.

[Even without the weirdness going on, he's still too serious for his own good...]

[espigeonage]

That's fair. I'm maybe an overly energetic person! Also ridiculous, but that's been established already.

[chalicejoker]

Can't argue with you there.

[espigeonage]

Lol, yeah!

Anyway, thank you, good sir/madam. I feel a bit less frazzled for you having taken the time to text with me about this.

[chalicejoker]

Glad I could help. This stuff isn't the easiest to deal with.

[espigeonage]

Don't I know it. But hey, none of us is alone here. That's something.

[chalicejoker]

Alone, I'm pretty sure I'd think I was just losing my mind. That we have the network is proof we're not all crazy, I guess.

[espigeonage]

Yeah. Though "crazy" might be better in the long run, less dangerous... well, nothing we can do about that, is there?

[chalicejoker]

I'm afraid not. About all we can do is try to endure as best we can.