[What Winter says makes sense, and Lily realizes that. Which doesn't mean it doesn't still bother her - the memory of someone she didn't know dying suddenly feeling worse than what Lily had been through, as if she really had experienced both? Something about that makes her feel... dirty, but she tries to push it aside for then.

So, she just gives another shake of her head, and continues to hold her relatively weak smile.]

It's not about not wanting to talk about my past, it's something that I've long since been able to talk about, it's just... [She averts her gaze again, sighing a bit. She shifts a bit uncomfortably in her seat.] Talking like this to people isn't something I'm used to, I guess...? I've already sort of asked a lot of you tonight, I don't want to just dump my sob story on you at the same time.

[She pauses a bit, and fidgets some more. She knows what it is, really. She hardly ever came to Jasmine or her father with her own issues, nor had she with any friends prior to the Network. She was normally so busy trying to help or fix everyone else's problems. She hadn't expected to react as she did to seeing Raquel, not to this extent, but either way she'd asked Winter here so she was already feeling like she'd overstepped herself just a bit.] It's not that I couldn't talk to anyone, it's just...

[She blinks a bit, the horrible thought that she'd been trying to keep at bay for the past couple minutes worming its way into her head with what Winter said now sinking in. Could Dark Precure be connected to his death? All of this felt as if there could be connections, and with the way she was getting these memories...

She shudders a bit, involuntarily but visibly, trying and failing to hide it as the chill runs through her.]