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savetheearth2013-04-26 08:00 pm
argents) wrote in savetheearth2013-04-26 08:00 pm
[closed] it has enacted laws
WHO: Casval Mass (secondcomingof) & Banagher Links (argents)
WHAT: Post-being-werewolved feelings jam.
WHEN: Backdated to the night of the 20th.
WHERE: Banagher's apartmenthow did you even get this address?!
WHY: Because seeking out your once-upon-a-time mortal enemy while injured is smart.
[ He knows what night it is. By more than just name, or date. Or remembering what plans were coming to what seemed like an impossible fruition. No, somehow, he feels it. A kind of quiet tension that sits on the surface of the air and sparks every so often, causing Banagher to glance out the window. Restlessly, apprehensively. It's the kind of quiet that precedes something terrible, like a wake, but he's trying not to think about that kind of noise, or lack thereof.
Instead he's sinking into the worn trails of routine. Several days worth of coursework thrown about the coffee table, crushed between books and binders, in various states of completion. Just to have something to do other than be aware of the dark and what was sure to erupt out of it after the hunt in the Dead District.
Eventually, his brain tires of the strictly logical and linear, leaving him to stop trying to dig his heels in against the inevitable. Which was thinking about the illogical, allowing those thoughts of memories with shoddy stitching to resurface, embellished with worry for those who were heeding the first calls of an uncertain war. It's painful to be inert like this when there were people he cared for out there choosing to fight, but Banagher couldn't agree to it. Not knowing so little about the current situation, the important bits hastily dog-eared by conversation alone, and feeling so hesitant about the future paths that this would blast open. Picking up a weapon in a state like that...
Just thinking about it makes him sick. The weight of a gun in his hands. Shooting.
Killing.
He'd almost be angry about it if he had the heart, but he doesn't, not as the night drags on and the stars rise high. Maybe he hears the boom of gunfire in the distance, maybe he doesn't. Dozing in a knitted throw older than he was in the living room of his apartment takes precedence for the day ahead—Sunday, lazy Sunday where he doesn't have anything else to do but go meet Colette at her grandmother's tea shop.
Those were the important things, so long as he could remember them. Not the soft buzzing stirring to life in his head, anticipating. ]
secondcomingof) & Banagher Links (argents)WHAT: Post-being-werewolved feelings jam.
WHEN: Backdated to the night of the 20th.
WHERE: Banagher's apartment
WHY: Because seeking out your once-upon-a-time mortal enemy while injured is smart.
[ He knows what night it is. By more than just name, or date. Or remembering what plans were coming to what seemed like an impossible fruition. No, somehow, he feels it. A kind of quiet tension that sits on the surface of the air and sparks every so often, causing Banagher to glance out the window. Restlessly, apprehensively. It's the kind of quiet that precedes something terrible, like a wake, but he's trying not to think about that kind of noise, or lack thereof.
Instead he's sinking into the worn trails of routine. Several days worth of coursework thrown about the coffee table, crushed between books and binders, in various states of completion. Just to have something to do other than be aware of the dark and what was sure to erupt out of it after the hunt in the Dead District.
Eventually, his brain tires of the strictly logical and linear, leaving him to stop trying to dig his heels in against the inevitable. Which was thinking about the illogical, allowing those thoughts of memories with shoddy stitching to resurface, embellished with worry for those who were heeding the first calls of an uncertain war. It's painful to be inert like this when there were people he cared for out there choosing to fight, but Banagher couldn't agree to it. Not knowing so little about the current situation, the important bits hastily dog-eared by conversation alone, and feeling so hesitant about the future paths that this would blast open. Picking up a weapon in a state like that...
Just thinking about it makes him sick. The weight of a gun in his hands. Shooting.
Killing.
He'd almost be angry about it if he had the heart, but he doesn't, not as the night drags on and the stars rise high. Maybe he hears the boom of gunfire in the distance, maybe he doesn't. Dozing in a knitted throw older than he was in the living room of his apartment takes precedence for the day ahead—Sunday, lazy Sunday where he doesn't have anything else to do but go meet Colette at her grandmother's tea shop.
Those were the important things, so long as he could remember them. Not the soft buzzing stirring to life in his head, anticipating. ]
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The word seems hollow, now. Everything does. When Banagher staggers back, caught in that emotional whirlwind of Casval's design, the scene abruptly shatters, whipping the man towards reality again by force. No more flowers, no more sunlight, no more piano, and he'd be grateful for that, except for the fact he can hardly breathe himself. Heart torn in every direction, ready to beat right out of his chest.
If only it could, some deeply disturbed part of him thinks. If only he could toss it aside, just like that.
Then maybe she wouldn't be keeping it prisoner for the rest of his sorry life.
Casval stares at Banagher, cross-eyed, like he's just grown three heads. And he might as well have, for how floored he is by all of this. ]
For what? [ He asks, dazedly. For all the feelings surging through him, anger isn't one of them. Even he's amazed. Shaking his head, as if it might clear out the remnants of dusty old relics he'd rather forget, he brings the back of his hand to a wet cheek. ] No, it was... my fault. I pushed too far, without knowing.
[ A tentative pause, and then: ]
You saw everything, didn't you?
[ Saw all the parts he never wanted the world to see. All the parts that would never leave Banagher, and all because of him. ]