[he definitely shouldn't have offered and definitely shouldn't have come. OH WELL IN TOO DEEP NOW. he motions toward the passenger side door and climbs into the car]
[he knows why he volunteered for this, and it wasn't just out of curiosity. there's some part of him that wants to reconnect with Xander. as though somehow gaining his approval can resolve what happened. it's like wanting forgiveness, but on a deeply subconscious and far more abstract level.]
[it's probably a lost cause, he thinks. but he tries not to dwell on that while Xander directs him to the guest parking]
no subject
[he definitely shouldn't have offered and definitely shouldn't have come. OH WELL IN TOO DEEP NOW. he motions toward the passenger side door and climbs into the car]
[he knows why he volunteered for this, and it wasn't just out of curiosity. there's some part of him that wants to reconnect with Xander. as though somehow gaining his approval can resolve what happened. it's like wanting forgiveness, but on a deeply subconscious and far more abstract level.]
[it's probably a lost cause, he thinks. but he tries not to dwell on that while Xander directs him to the guest parking]