[That is most certainly not helping. Especially with that one memory where he saw himself changing and knew that this form was the truth, that this was his original form, and that the human disguise he had taken on just wasn't enough to hold it back.]

No, I'm not.

[That possibly came out to sound a bit more defensive than Hajime would have liked.]

I'm going to find a way to change back.

[The memory still pulls at him, taunting him with the knowledge that he was only pretending, wasn't really human, could never be one, Joker's instincts were too strong...]