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theres somebdoy here from my past
and not just anybdoy somebody i was really close to back then
really really close
shesin most of my memories
alost all fo them
but something terrible happened to her in the things i eremember
and its why i have thet attoo on my face
why he hsd it on his anyway
shes really nice and i dont want her to get hurt
if shes sees that tattoo what if she echoes aobut the other stuff

its really selfish to wish i cuold talk to her right
even though she could echo aful stuff back rihgt?
they coudl actually urt her.
really hurt her

idont know what to do

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There's always the chance that it won't. We can't predict what people will echo back. We can't predict a lot of things about this.

If I'd known beforehand that the person I used to be tried to kill the person my girlfriend used to be, I still would have told her about it. I think it's the kind of thing she deserves to know. And if this person is in most of past-your memories, I think you owe it to her to tell her that.

I mean, it might be what we're supposed to do with each other.

i told her but i dontw ant her to see me just in case something about me makes ti happen to her

i told her to stay away

i hope she doesnt thinkit was becuase i don't like her or something

It's hard, knowing a secret that could destroy someone else and not being able to tell it. I've heard that that's what love is, but I also heard that from a comedian on the internet, so who knows.

Anyway. Do you know the name of the person you used to be? You could try telling her that to see if it triggers anything less dangerous first. Or telling her as much information as you can without bringing up the tattoo. You might be able to get her on the same ground as far as echoes go. Then you two can make the decision together.

itwas my name jacuzzi splot.

but wemet before we had classes last semester.

So it was before you echoed back the tattoo.

What exactly did you tell her? Does she know that one of your echoes could trigger a lot of bad things for her? Or was "stay away" all you said?

I told her about how the other her was hurt bad and i realy hope she took it sersiously becuase it didn't seem liek she did.

How badly would she be hurt? Do you feel comfortable talking about that?

bad

really really bad

Do you know what would happen? I'm assuming she wouldn't die outright, but it could still be pretty bad. Petrification, for example.

Or going blind.

she was still alive an stuff and she seemed

happy. really happy but

it happened hwne they were kids and back then she cried.

I didn't have the luxury of somebody else knowing what was going to happen to me when I started echoing back life-changing things. If it's the kind of thing that she can practice for, just to get accustomed to it, maybe she could try that? You could coach her through it.

I don't want to sound like this is some big unavoidable thing, but in my experience, echoes hit at the worst possible time and without any rhyme or reason behind them. She might even echo back exactly what you're trying to prevent without seeing your face at all. I'm sorry, Jacuzzi. This is a horrible situation to be in.

so no matter waht i do i acnt help her.

I've... performed autopsies on too many friends. I learned the hard way that you can't prevent every tragedy. I'm still working on coming to terms with that. But you have something that I've never had. You know what's coming. So you can be there for her and try to make things easier for her for when it does happen. I think she would appreciate that.

buts he barely even knwos me. whyw ould she trust me?

You said she seems generally nice, right? And you knew each other in your past lives. Those are a couple big ins for you, I think. And besides, you don't seem like an untrustworthy person. I'm a pretty good judge of character like that.

But you don't know me at all i could be a terrible person

i am a terrible person

Actual terrible people aren't usually that concerned with whether or not they're terrible people. You're just proving my point. ;)

hewas a bootlegging gang leader

the last me

But he's not you. He's never been you. You have to keep that in mind.

what if i end up like him

poeple change becuase of echoes.

You're always going to have yourself in there. No matter how many echoes we get hit with, the people we are at our core don't change. That's what I think.

the only thing i am is a csrew up so i dont think thats any better

That's not the impression you're giving me, Jack. (I hope that's okay to call you. I call my friends nicknames.)

it doest matter what you call me

someoen already calls met aht anyway an d a lot of my teachers did too.

All right, cool.

I'm serious, I just want you to know that. I think you did the right thing coming to the network for advice, and I think you're a lot more caring of a person than you give yourself credit for. You've got a handle on this.

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