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[shiromadoushi]

Everybody make it out okay from that insanity with the snakes? Check in if I haven't seen you since.




Has anyone really given much through to how much these flashback pulse echo things are actually affecting us? How much power these memories really have to change who we are.

Do you think they can change anything other than just us?

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[Text | Private] | So late....

[professorwolf]

I'm all right. Turned into a wolf and tried to attack my friend, but I'm all right.

[And seeing as he's heard some of this before....]

Seeing as they can create items, and beings for that matter, out of nothing, I imagine they could change other things besides us. Everything all right?

[Text | Private] *gives tea*

[shiromadoushi]

[[a slight pause]]

I got another memory... in the chaos with the snakes.

You know how I remembered Egypt being recreated by Creampuff?

This one was Asshole telling the pharaoh that the world he was in was just an illusion -- an alternate reality created by his memories. And that he was just a pawn to those memories.

All while the thief was melting to sand behind him.

[professorwolf]

[That does sound pretty disconcerting, if he's understanding that right.]

You think he was telling the truth?

[shiromadoushi]

[[a slight pause]]

I think he was. Especially since he was hovering and the rest of everything seemed frozen still as he was monologuing.

[professorwolf]

There are people even here who can do all kinds of amazing and frightening things. It could have been illusion of another kind, or a dream. Though even if it was real... what is it making you think of, here and now?

[shiromadoushi]

It's been bothering me since the snake attack... So many things I'm remembering involve games that are far too serious. If everything from Egypt is a game, but Diabound is still real...

The line between what's real and isn't gets blurred too much. And when things happen it's even worse.

I don't like feeling like I'm being messed with.

[professorwolf]

I don't think any of us enjoy being messed with. That seems to be all of what this is, even if it is also very real.

I don't believe all of this is illusion, at least. It affects too many people on too grand a scale.

[If that's even what Bakura is worried about.]

I don't believe it is a game, either. I do think there is something important that must be done, I simply don't know enough to say what it is, besides "regarding the alien".

[shiromadoushi]

But if what I'm remembering was, there wouldn't be anyway to know unless something broken the illusion.

Diabound is real. But the game wasn't. Diabound is HERE, even if not fully. None of this shit makes any sense!

And the thief is the only one of the three I'm remembering that I even LIKE. He's the only one who makes any SENSE and if HE's the fake one what the fuck does that even say about the others?!

Feels like I'm going to lose my goddamned mind over this

[professorwolf]

Don't take it at face value, Bakura. I'm sure if you're getting pieces from him as well as the others, he's real, as well. His appearance just then might have been the illusion, or the melting might have been the illusion.

These other lives are so very complicated that it's not going to help to make surface assumptions, I'm afraid :(

[shiromadoushi]

[[a bit of a pause]]

I don't think any of his memories overlap. Not like Creampuff and Asshole's do.

Sometimes I really hate this. Some many other people's flashbacks seem to make so much more sense. Or at least just be one person! I can't help but wonder if the reason I remember three is that only one is real...

[professorwolf]

It's possible. Perhaps he is the real one, in the end, since his memories do not overlap with anyone else's? Or perhaps he is the same as one of the other two, only from a different time frame?

[He's throwing out guesses, but they're educated ones, at least. Having a different theory to latch onto seems the thing to offer Bakura, at least.]

[shiromadoushi]

Obviously a different time, he lived in Egypt back when it had pharoah. The other two were in modern Japan.

I just wish I knew why his world was being made into a game. There's some stupid link between all three of them that I still know jack shit about and it's really bugging me. Asshole might just be aping Creampuff's ID, but even two guys named Bakura with white hair who both got their fingers on a nasty bit of black magic and soul monsters? Either Creampuff made him up to be an alternate him and somehow gave him life or I'm in serious deep shit.

[professorwolf]

Even if you are, you aren't in it alone. I may not have the answers here, but you know you can come to me with any concerns or worries, and I know I'm not the only one. If it helps any, I think you'll be all right as long as you keep that in mind.

[It isn't much, and it's definitely not going to fix or illuminate anything, but it's better than nothing, he hopes.]

[shiromadoushi]

[[There's a bit of a pause]]

Can you do me a favor?

If I start acting really weird, don't come see you or anything... check in with Hajime?

[professorwolf]

Certainly. With Hajime?

[He'd probably also check in with his grandmother, but he won't say that since he's pretty sure Bakura won't approve. He is curious why Hajime in particular, though.]

[shiromadoushi]

Yeah. He should know if something's up.

[[Because in many ways they were the same...]]

[professorwolf]

I will do that, then.

Feeling a little better?

[shiromadoushi]

[[a pause]]

A little. But not really.

I really don't like the memories I get from that asshole. Almost everything I get is horrible. Not that thief is much better, but at least his are mostly the "Life sucks, then you murder god" rather than the insane soul stealing puppet master.

[professorwolf]

I wish there was something I could do to make it easier for you :( It's more than you should have to deal with.

[All of this is, but Bakura's in particular, at his age and with his history.]

[shiromadoushi]

[[another small pause.]]

I wish you could too.

But I'll manage. Always have.

I won't let this asshole ruin anything.

[professorwolf]

Try not to. If it looks like he might, come talk to me again. At the least, perhaps you can show me one of your video games and it'll be something different.

[shiromadoushi]

Willing to put up with me nerding it up to help, huh? True dedication.

Here's just hoping that ass hasn't done anything to video games like he has all other games...

[professorwolf]

Hey, I nerd it up all on my own without your help, I'll have you know :P But yes.

[He's not telling Bakura he plays Guild Wars 2. He might wind up with the boy trying to find his avatar, and that would be awkward.]

[shiromadoushi]

[[What, you don't want an in game stalker, Lyall~?]]

Wii games don't count~ Neither does solitaire~

[professorwolf]

[Calling his nerd cred into question...! Lyall resists the urge to start listing off games he owns, and has beaten.]

I know they don't. I actually hate solitaire. It's impossible to win, half the hands that are dealt. I need something with strategy.