Hajime Aikawa (
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Hey. Has anyone remembered something where you've seen yourself? I don't mean seeing your reflection or anything like that, I've done that before, but I saw myself standing there off to one side while I was doing something else. He had my face and everything.
[There's something Hajime's not saying there. He remembers being an angry and wounded and defeated bug monster, and as he got sucked into that cramped prison, he was raging at the human who was responsibleā¦the one with his face. Filled with rage and consumed with the disbelief that he had lost to such a weak creature.]
It feels like it should be one of those weird metaphorical symbolic dreams or something, only I know it's not. The memory's too real to be a dream, it feels like the other memories I have, and everything else about it is pretty much in line with what I've been remembering except for seeing myself there like thatā¦
[He trails off in a bit of uncertainty. Nothing about that memory makes sense.]
[There's something Hajime's not saying there. He remembers being an angry and wounded and defeated bug monster, and as he got sucked into that cramped prison, he was raging at the human who was responsibleā¦the one with his face. Filled with rage and consumed with the disbelief that he had lost to such a weak creature.]
It feels like it should be one of those weird metaphorical symbolic dreams or something, only I know it's not. The memory's too real to be a dream, it feels like the other memories I have, and everything else about it is pretty much in line with what I've been remembering except for seeing myself there like thatā¦
[He trails off in a bit of uncertainty. Nothing about that memory makes sense.]
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[This is important, considering Toni's ~other self~ looked right at her.]
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[There's a bit of a pause before he decides his bugdom is public knowledge enough to say what he's going to say next.]
I was in my insect form when it happened, so anything's possible, I suppose.
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Or a twin?
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And I only know him as having my face now, outside that memory. The me in that memory wasn't angry with him for that reason. It's weird.
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Perhaps you are two halves of a whole?
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If I were half of something, I'd have to wonder where the other half is. Can't say I like the idea.
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If you were not two halves of a whole, then the other person (for lack of a better term) is a Shadow, perhaps.
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It's also likely that this person with your face is a physical manifestation of your Shadow.
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Physical manifestation of the psyche?
Would it be possible for something like that to take the shape of a roach monster?
[He is sadly pretty sure he can make an accurate guess at this answer.]
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Though you would not have been the first one to encounter your Shadow in the physical realm.
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If this is what was going on in my memory, I think I may have been the one who was the Shadow.
He was human. I was not.
[Well, it's not like he's been making much of an effort of keeping "hey, I'm a giant bug" secret otherwise.]
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It might explain why he was so poorly behaved in most of what I remember.