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Hey. Has anyone remembered something where you've seen yourself? I don't mean seeing your reflection or anything like that, I've done that before, but I saw myself standing there off to one side while I was doing something else. He had my face and everything.

[There's something Hajime's not saying there. He remembers being an angry and wounded and defeated bug monster, and as he got sucked into that cramped prison, he was raging at the human who was responsible…the one with his face. Filled with rage and consumed with the disbelief that he had lost to such a weak creature.]

It feels like it should be one of those weird metaphorical symbolic dreams or something, only I know it's not. The memory's too real to be a dream, it feels like the other memories I have, and everything else about it is pretty much in line with what I've been remembering except for seeing myself there like that…

[He trails off in a bit of uncertainty. Nothing about that memory makes sense.]

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Was the memory in stereo? Like you could see both halves of it from both people?

No. It was just from one point of view.

But I was the bug, and I saw my human self standing there. And I was really angry with him.

You'd said something about monsters getting sealed into stone slabs earlier?

[It might seem like a weird conversational shift at the moment, but there's a point to that, he swears.]

Yeah. One of the bastard priests tried to seal Diabound into one.

Weird it wasn't in stereo. All mine where Creampuff and Asshole were fighting came doubled.

That's what I remember. I was the bug, and I think I might have been getting sealed into a stone slab.

My human self was watching and I was angrier with him than I can ever remember being with anyone, both in one of these memories and in real life. I can't remember anything from his point of view, just my monster self's.

He couldn't stop you from being sealed...?

Because I'm pretty sure Diabound would have been super pissed if I couldn't keep him from being sealed.

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-- Er -- perhaps - he -- could have... been a - shape-shifter... of - some type -- ...or an illusion -- ... [Given some of the things that some of them have been seeing, at the least! He hasn't any sufficient clue as to whether it fits in with the kind of world in which Hajime's seeing, but if it might be a contribution...]

Maybe...I was certainly angry enough with him for him to have been taunting me somehow...

[He's enough of a shapeshifter himself now that this makes sense, right? Right?]

What else was he doing -- ...? [Had this been much longer ago he may have excused himself for asking but sees fit to assume that by this point it's understood that no pesky sort of prying is meant. He keeps his tone a bit restrained and hoarse all the same, to make up.]

He was just...watching me. Smiling.

[The anger he felt in the memory is lingering to the point where some of it's creeping into Hajime's voice as he speaks. Either he doesn't think Anthony is prying, he needs to vent anyway, or he doesn't care.]

I think he'd defeated me somehow.

For the -- "right", to - ...take your appearance...? -- Maybe...

[It is a further inquiry much more than a suggestion, in spite of the "maybe."]

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Did he look right at you?

[This is important, considering Toni's ~other self~ looked right at her.]

Yeah. And he looked like the happiest guy in the world even though I was anything but.

Is it possible that it is not you, but simply someone else with your appearance?

Maybe. I was rather angry with him.

[There's a bit of a pause before he decides his bugdom is public knowledge enough to say what he's going to say next.]

I was in my insect form when it happened, so anything's possible, I suppose.

Insect form? You may have to clarify that for me.

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Maybe the other you had a brother.

We were two different species at the time...and I don't think I would have wanted to claim any relation to him.

Different species at the time? You could change?

I think I could, yeah. I remember changing at other times, and I can change now.

[He is getting way too used to discussing this as though it were something perfectly normal...]

Change into what?

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[ azure makes it a habit to at least skim most posts every so often, as her schoolwork allows, but this is the first one in literal ages that actually gives her pause. monsters sealed in tablets, looking at yourself from another perspective, and, weirdest of all, seeing the words bugman so much... something is making her eyes spin, as though she's on the verge of information overload. ]

sorry to peek over your shoulder, so to speak, but can you elaborate on some things for me? specifically the stuff about being some kind of bug getting sealed away. what was the process like? what did you look like? do you know?

It was unpleasant. That's all I remember.

[No, that's not all he remembers, but that's all he's willing to talk about at this point.]

I can do better than tell you.

[There's a picture attached of this guy ~~who in no way looks like Uva~~ taking a self-portrait with a cell phone in a bathroom mirror.]

[ WHOA. OK that definitely gets a very long pause in which she gets a very distinct echo and the instinct to BACKPEDAL BACKPEDAL BACKPEDAL FOR DEAR LIFE. ]

ok. so, i don't think you're dangerous or anything, and i'm sure that overall you're a really great guy, but i got one of those pulses and i think you might have been attacking me?

[There is the biggest wince ever on Hajime's end.]

I'm sorry to say that's very possible. Most of my memories revolve around fighting or attacking things.

[ oh. well. ordinarily, she'd say that's better than nothing, but... ]

it's not like that guy is actually you, right? so... it's all right. i'm not about to flip out on you for doing something you didn't do to someone who may or may not have been me. sort of. (this is confusing.)

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